Tell me you're not one of them,

Today was fine (?)

HAPPY ADVANCED BIRTHDAY QHAIRAH :D ♥

For pe,we were actually supposed to do shuttle run but the lightning alert went off so played games instead.
BUT THEN,something happened.
Kamu,cheer up eh? It's sad to see you cry tau. You're supposed to be strong kan? But it's okay,i'll be strong for you if you can't ^^

Maths; Mdm Tan took over Ms chala's period so instead of a single period,we got double for maths today. cool or whuuutttt? -.-

and for recess,I FINALLY SAW MY "kawan baik", heh :D

I don't know why but i keep dozing off during chemistry and to think that i'm actually sitting at the front row.Got back test paper for physics. Could have done better,loss of marks to careless-ness. Damn -.-!!

After school was the fun part *does secret laughter sign w sya
Azilla had np so i followed syahilah and tasha to buy bb-tea and sent amal lina home.
Then watched the boys play soccer for a while and azilla joined us soon after.
Very entertaining ^^V It's so funny watching them play.
sya,rmbr kenneth? *does secret laughter sign
and FILKHAIRI TORE HIS PANTS LMAO :P

4.30pm came and aidah and sya went off to bugis.
Talked with tasha and azilla at the back of the canteen abt some stuffs which scares the hell out of me. It was getting hot so moved into the canteen where we found nana,aqilah,rudi,muz,aziimi,aminn and fil. It was so funneh ;D made hand signs which made me laugh like hell.
left at 5.30pm. now i'm home and i'm starving. rawr!!

Why do liars wear masks so deceiving?

Gosh,i'm so worried for my art and malay exams )':
Art ; you don't have to ask. you already know -.- how can i finish my work in time? oh god );
Malay ; th quality of my work has dropped tremendously.i'm not sure why exactly? blame it on all the problems i've been facing lately.cikgu warned me already.if i don't buck up soon, PTM here i come.
It's no wonder I'm having a hard time trying to convince myself that I'll maintain my grades for MYE.

Oral just now. It was easy ^^. But the suspense almost killed me.
I'm hoping to score here. Fingers crossed for me yeah?

I miss so many people )':

I miss Azilla cos she's my oh-so-strong pillar :D she'll smile at me and say "We're in the same boat,so let's drown together" and that comforts me somehow. And she know's me best <3

I miss Aidah cos she'll give me this look and say "Awk,takmo sad kay.Kite sayang awak ♥"

I miss Nana cos she'll ask "Asal sedih?" and gives me her act-cute face which makes me hug her. Plus,she never fails to make me laugh (:
I miss Syahilah ; my strong babe who'll stay strong for me if i can't <3I miss En Qi cos she'll show me her fuck-face,attitude problematic face and say "Zuriati,i love you leh <3"Enqiiiiiii,don't so sad lah. There's so many people here for you. I'll shout your name out loud if you want. You like right :D ? You're strong,really. Stronger than most of us,that i can say. I know you'll go through all the obstacles and come out unscathed cos you're a brave one. I believe in you and don't give up so easily dear. Don't give in to whatever that's bothering you and don't let it slow you down. Show them what you're really made up of. Don't worry,i'll love you no matter what.

I miss Aminn cos he'll make me laugh and say "jangan nangis".He reminds me of DORAEMON!

I miss Fil cos.No wait,i miss the old Filkhairi.

I miss Acap cos he makes me laugh like hell and he'll say "Dh besar nak jadi joker peh?" which makes me laugh even more.
I miss Solihin cos he's my wonderful counsellor who'll say "Asal sedih? Jangan nangis lah" and then mess up my hair which makes me say "Aku benci kau"
I miss Aziimi cos he's my great partner in class and he's the first one to suffer from my mood swings and tantrums.

I miss Zi Xiu cos i miss disturbing him ^^ he disturbs too me but always makes me laugh in the end. go to him when you have problems. he'll give you this don't care-don't care attitude which rubs off on you and you'll also give your problems a can't be bothered attitude. He'll make the worst cum the best psychologist someday.

I miss Hwee Hwa maam cos she's helped me the most during RC. She gave me the will to go on when i felt like taking a break from everything including CCA. I wonder how i'll get by without her now )':

I miss Celeste maam cos she'll literally force me to smile when i'm either angry or sad. Then she'll poke me (: To think of it,she's the one who helped saviours alot ^^

How will i get through CCA without the both of them?

These are the main people who make life and CCA bearable and i'm thankful to god for having them in my life (:

We'll get there in the end,

School was an ass. -.-
Firstly,i don't understand a single thing abt art exams. Andi'm getting really confused.
To make matters worse,I JUST LOST MY SKETCH BOOK. damn it.
Half of my observational drawings are inside that stupid sketch book you know!!! ):
i only realised it was gone after rc at the interchange. )': sedihh.
and i'm in no mood to redraw every single art piece of mine since January. I have 3 developmental drawings to do as well!! argghhh. i hate myself for being so careless.
I'll probably get scolded by Miss Pushpa on monday,yay.

During CCD,form teachers forced us to bring home all our books left under the table or she'll throw it in the rubbish bin.I have tons of books under there,heh. Physics,chemistry,geography,english books,malay,ss and the hunted. My reaction was "@^%*&!^#$%" heh :D
BUT,we found somewhr else to put,heh :D so ended up not bringing home my books after all (:
and ms chala says,we have to scrape out all the vandalism on the plastic covers or we'll have to pay for a new one. Who cares? It's only $2 -.-

After that had rc.kinda disappointed though with what happened. Oh well,as long as we've tried our best yeah,saviours?
then walked to the interchange with mj and bp sir when i realised lost my sketch book. sedihhhh )':

Time will tell in the end,

WOAH.Things are happening too fast,way too fast.
Just shut up for a while okay cos I need to scream at your bloody face.
Damn it.

Guess I was wrong about you,

"If you love someone so much,the best thing to do is to just let them go.
But if they come back,then they're yours."
-solihin

this almost set me crying but it didn't.

syahilah,cheer up eh? jangan sedih-sedih lah. kiter sayang awak banyak banyak! ♥

We each have our own fair share of pain and misery,no?
I sense a whole new series of heartbreak, disappointment, frustration, anger, confusion, hopelessness,being let down and everything else that falls under that category heading my way at full speed. Well,i've endured it before so i guess i can go through it again yeah.I might break down a time or two but i'll go through the whole painful experience just the same. people say you learn from experience but how many times must i go through this before its enough?

Honestly,i don't know what to feel,what to say and what to do right now. Someone help me please.

Talked with sol,amal and muz for for more than an hour after coming out from dc. sedihh :(
was supposed to follow aidah,fil,aminn,aziimi,rudi,amal and sol to get a birthday present but i and sol decided to go home after walking with them till cwp. wasn't in the mood. was on the verge of tears but i contained myself thanks to amal. amal,aku sayang kau (: and yes,thanks sol for your concern.

AND YES,I MISS NUR 'AZILLA BTE IDRIS ALOT. ♥

cos i need her right now.she was always there for me through thick and thin.though,i might seem unappreciative but honestly,i'm thankful for her presence.she was the shoulder i leant on,the hand i grabbed hold of and the one i turned to whenever i'm in need or denial.
But it's okay,i'll try to stay strong till i see her again.sebab kiter memang strong pun. Or at least i will be.SOON. oh god,help me please.

Looking back,i wish i could rewind yesterday,

18 April 2009 ♥ ; Debate workshop

malay students mainly from 3 itg - 3dyn attended this debate workshop at school yesterday. most were from 3 cmt as we had the most numbers of malay pupils in our class ^^V

reporting time was 8.15 but the workshop only started at around 9plus -.-!
other schools were also there. riverside,sembawang,marsiling,woodlands and woodlands ring.
the guys actually got the girls' numbers.woah.sempat seh :D
it ended at about 1.30pm and decided to go for lunch.
some miscommunication here. sedih seh ;( i was on the verge of tears kan aidah?

so in the end,me,aidah,syahilah,filkhairi,solihin,aziimi,muz and qusyairi had lunch at banquet. walked all the way to cwp. seriously uh,spent like quality time with them seh (:
shared things with them which never in my whole 15 years thought i would. (i know im not yet 15 arh but let's just round off)

you usually don't tell guys your personal stuff but when you do,you realise that they're quite understanding.they accept it calmly.depending on who you ask :D
as for girls,we always kick up such a fuss and like syahilah says,we accept things with much kekecohan. but in a good way uh. sometimes it's relieving to know tht someone else accepts the truth th same way you do.

finished lunch at 2plus and aidah left first cos she had tuition.went window shopping with them.mcm cool gitu uh. so many people crowding in one shop w/o buying anything.

went to sports link and saw this mother-of-all-nike-products;a pink nike slipper!!
apparently great minds think alike cos syahilah realised its awesome-ness as well.
like i said,girls accept truth with much kekecohan right,while guys were cool and relaxed. me and syahilah were like "i'm falling in love w th shoe alr." idk how many times we touched th slipper.but th guys were looking at soccer boots in a much civilised manner though,heh.

right after exiting sports link,i had to leave alr uh. then filkhairi said,

fil : aziimi,kau tinggal dekat ngn dier kn.kau gi antar dier uh.
aziimi : abeh aku ! kau nk suruh aku antar ni budak balik.
me : *shows aziimi this fierce look
fil : a'ah lah. kau kn partner dier.
syahilah : tkperlah,kite sumer hantar dier sampai bawah je lah.
me : boleh ah,yay :D

so they sent me all the way to the escalator above the bus interchange. mcm sweet gitu kn

Trying to catch those fallen tears,

Promotion Parade & Passing-Out-Parade 09'

It went well i guess. But POP didn't go as planned.It was somehow disastrous ^^ Quite a number of cock-ups.
Oh well,what's passed shall pass yeah?

I'm featured in hwee hwa maam's blog :D woo!
wrote her a little note but i didn't expect it to have such an impact on her.
well,apparently it had a bombastic impact (:okay,i'm so touched! :D
hahahaha. walked to cwp with mj and the rest of the maams and sirs. then bus-ed from there.

i shall miss them though (:

Maybe,just maybe I'll move on,

School was heart shape today.
Because Mdm Tan wasn't here for maths,everybody scream!!!
yess ah!!! :D
AND AND AND, SHE WON'T BE HERE TILL THURSDAY.
nyahahaha,sukenyer aku (:

After school,slacked around till 3.30pm with classmates before i left.
Went to popular to get some stuffs and then made my way to the library where i saw aminn,areef,muz and filkhairi.
So instead of spending only 30mins in the library,i spent around 2 hours there with them.
And we got scolded by the staff thrice (:
Cracked alot of jokes.Especially lame ones :x
It was fun there with them cos they made me laugh multiple times :P
and yeah,talked with filkhairi about some stuffs.
Reached home at around 6.30pm,bathed and planning to do my homework later on.
Time check now is 7.44pm and parents are out buying dinner.
i'm starving man. Last time i ate was recess. shall wait for them to return then :D

Cause a true hero never lies,

Asyraf says:
This one he told me uh.He said,"Zuriati is okay uh except that she lack leadership.Cause that time she angry,then she showed it."

I say:
Oh okay. *grins and sticks out tongue

Well,I'll take it in my stride yeah? Take it in a optimistic way.Thanks for your comment though (:

school starts at 9.15 tmw people :D
this means more sleep,more sleep!

Say it isn't so please,

Went to support HML classmates for their competiton just now.
I'd rather support this than that eh please.
Had asyraf,azilla,aidah and amal with me.
The rest were the competitors. Sadly,we didn't win anything but it's okay. Optimism yeah? :D
Competiton ended at 6pm and train-ed back to woodlands.
Train ride was "HA-HA-HA" lah. Shall not elaborate more (:
Reached woodlands at around 7 plus and had dinner at LJS. Then everyone left at 8pm.
Dinner was amusing :D Asyraf shared a number of hilarious stories about someone.

Yes,I'll show you what real love can do.

School started off fine. Perfectly fine.
In fact, I was incessantly cheered up by the fact that he actually walked by BLK C yesterday :D
I was so happy that i hugged azilla for no apparent reason.
But Maths had to go and spoil everything.

Wth.You don't have to scream bloody murder right.Just because I did one stupid mistake, you're saying my attitude sucks. Do yourself a favour please and take a quick look in the mirror. Reflect on yourself first before you want to condemn others.You're not that perfect yourself. As much as I care,your attitude sucks just as well. Please larh,CCA has nothing to do with this.
NABEY.FUCKING IRRITATING. DAMN YOU EH _I_

Day was spoiled afterwards.Screamed at some innocent bystander,mainly mj and daniel. Felt so guilty afterwards that i apologised non-stop. Spent the rest of my recess trying to cool down. Went back to class and i trashed everything out on partner. He was partly to blame as well (:
Didn't talk to anyone,even partner for the whole of SS and amazingly,I was listening to teacher.

After school,watched a beginning of a fight in the canteen with mild amusement during lunch. Found it so entertaining. Yes,I know I'm a sadistic. Had meeting afterwards. Then went home with mj. I get so pissed off just thinking abt it. asshole.

I shall probably dedicate my good friday to my art batik pieces,holed up in my room as well as to study for my upcoming geography test on monday.

If only,

Zi Xiu : Hey. Did my scandal pass her promotion test. Haha :D

see,see,see.such a caring scandal azilla has.

Didn't bring my sketchbook and art file today. The meeting for chairpersons was a lifesaver seh. Got to go for art late and teacher didn't bother about me,heh.
Then had geog followed by physics. CCD was fine.
After school, went to 883 with nisa,mj,daniel and pei si maam.
Bought bubble tea :D

reached school,changed and made our way to innova pri.
OMG,they're so cute :D
Taught them bandaging. Played some games and went back to school.
Joined back with the rest. Played captain's ball,had debrief afterwards and then was dismissal.
Then played some game with seniors. It was like "HA-HA-HA"

was planning to wait for np to end to return ben his shirt but sir chased us out of school -.-
so shall return it to him on monday (:

Zi Xiu is so thick-skinned can -.-