The truth hurts but a lie's worse,

Had nfdc training ytd till ard 11 plus.was quite slack considering it was th eve of christmas.
got candies from seniors :D
played th presents thingy and yeah,i got a present from lx.its kind of illogical but very cute though (:
Thn walked to cwp with nadiah and daniel and headed home.school's reopening nxt friday.i'm not tht psyched up about it.anw,merry christmas everybody.i don't care even if you're not celebrating it.its supposed to just be a general polite gesture.

Sometimes the truth scares me,

hey hey :D

yeah,i'm back.actually i was back on sunday but had nth to blog abt so yeah didn't blog for a while.

uip was tiring but worth it i guess.i liked th part of pop whr we made a cross and threw our berets.yay(!)i guess campfire was a success so congrats to oa spec :D

reached home ard 9pm and crashed.

so yada yada.

we had training today and finished at ard 12.30 and went home.hah,i got a slap frm tht daniel chang in th bus.thr was also sec 1 orientation so th sch was quite crowded and busy.planned on playing this christmas game on christmas eve's training whr we buy a present and pass them ard according to a story tht we make up.its kind of lame but its also kind of fun :D

this is our cross formation :D

see tht tiang zi xiu's serious face (:

th circled ppl were my grp members.

The after effects,

i found a nice show on tv to watch,despite my ramblings of boycotting television forever :D
campus shrewd (: th main character's quite adorable though.miss christmas tree.
will be off for another camp tomorrow =.=
i don't feel like going at all.i know its been a day alr but i'm still tired and exhausted from ytd's training.my body is still aching.i know.i'm pathetic :D
so yeah,miss me people (: *shameless

The irony of your actions,

i fell into a drain during lunch just now ;D
now thr's a bruise and the lump is quite obvious.didn't know tht you could get a bruise if you fell into a drain o.0 i didn't saw tht the drain didn't have a sort of cover.i was listening to wei lun teasing nisa abt a snail and BOOM! CRASH! BANG! i fell into it.(actually thr was no such sound effect but you get wht i mean.)throw face you know (:
yada yadaaaa.
passed my sfa course.everybody passed actually.th examiner was quite nice.
today was quite relaxed and yeah,joked ard with th ncc guys after finishing up with our bandaging and cpr.
ended at ard 5 and went home.
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it seems tht black faces are all i can give now tht you're here again.i don't think thr's a word 'limit' in your dictionary.you nvr know whn to stop unless somebody tells you off or you just realise it yourself.but so far th latter has nvr happened cos you think you're so perfect and flawless.well guess wht? you're not.you're full of flaws and imperfections just like anybody else.thr's a limit to how much i can stand you.th way you go overboard.th way you exaggerate.th way you insult me.th way you make me feel so small and bad abt myself.people are asking me to tell you off.to tell you whn you shld stop.to tell you tht thr's a limit to wht you can do.someday i might just explode and let everything out.but i hope tht day nvr comes cos i still sort of accept you as my friend.i hope wht i'm doing right now is worth all th pain and trouble.

so yeah,thnks a bunch to sha and nisa.especially sha for being thr for me :D

Thunder,

had the second sfa lesson today.
we finished up the remaining chpters left frm ytd's lesson.
lunch time was hysterical,honestly.it was th laugh-anymore-and-i'll-pee-in-my-pants funny.bp sir,lx,sha,mj,me and nisa had quite an interesting encounter in the rain.shall not elaborate anymore.
oh darn,tmw's th sfa test.i'm going to fail and waste all my 3 days going for this sfa course.i'm quite blur at some parts though ;D and my hands-on are a disaster.cpr is quite err, hard (?)
i can verbally say wht to do but i can't physically do it.my god,the library was sooo freezing cold.sat in thr for ard 5 hrs.was shivering man.somehow nearing th end of lesson,th weather quite matched my mood.left earlier thn th rest at ard 5 cos of some stuff.i don't feel like going for tmw.i'm not sure if i'm up to meeting her again after all this time.i've forgiven her for wht she did to me.but forgetting takes like forever you know.& forever is a long time don't you think? ):
arrgghh!!i haven't done up my uniform for saturday's uip yet.lesson plan's all done but its not yet printed.but yes,daniel will print it for me :D

parents cancelled cable tv ): i might as well not watch tv this way.
mum's reply was "isn't tht good?thr'll be less distraction and you can concentrate more on your school work."

sometimes i really hate the way her mind works.

Apologies not,

was late for rc ytd.*flashes a big smile
was supposed to meet th rest at 6am at bns but arrived a loooooonnnng time later :D so sorry larh seh.we were going to th campsite at bedok.arrived thr with 30mins to spare.cool or wht?th maams and sirs weren't even ready yet.had an assignment to do for uip,lesson planning for footdrill bronze : x-langkah.thr was a contact session for rcycc but didn't see anyone frm evg.asked daniel and he said tht he didn't even know thr was a contact session.
yada yada.left at 6.walked to bedok interchange and parents came while th rest bus-ed home.was planning to eat at pasir ris.thn whn we were like 5m away frm th shop aunt called asking us to have dinner at simpang bedok.yeah must return all th way to bedok =.="
i half-choked on my food whn all th ppl thr started screaming and shouting "GOAL!!" over a football match shown on th tv thr.srsly tht place is always crowded esp during th football season cos they have a tv for th customers to watch.good strategy to get more customers right :) after dinner went to changi.aunts and uncles started sharing ghost stories which they heard frm radio.namely misteri jam 12 & warna o.0 reched home ard 12 plus and crashed at 2 :D
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wasn't surprised whn mum told me tht i keep on spending so much time on rc.was expecting her to say it.well i don't deny tht my holidays are all full of rc.but still its better thn being at home.she even blamed rc whn my grades dropped.she'll nvr get over th fact tht its my inability to do maths.she went so far as to tell me to quit rc.maybe i will quit.it wouldn't make a difference whether im in or not.no one would really care.someone might even be glad,relieved or even happy.im tired of always being misinterpreted and hearing ppl talk abt me behind my back.as in literally right behind me.im tired of th tension in my presence,of th unspoken competition.it sucks whn you're th outcast for ridiculous reasons.my actions and everything i say is always scrutinised by someone.maybe im just a disturbance to someone in rc.a persistent eye sore.you cn nvr know right?

Flying colours,

heyho :D
i passed footdrill gold ppl!!! *starts running around in circles
hahahaha.
ytd woke up at 4.30am and started ironing my uniform.it was finally dry.th agony people of having to wake up in th wee hours.my legs were still aching frm th previous day's footdrill silver accred.mrt-ed to bns and changed at th station's toilet.th experience was err,horrible srsly.someone was doing their big buisness in th nxt cubicle.th sound effect was indescribable(!) ok whtever :D
took 168 to rc campsite at bedok.double decker bus mcm best gitu cos i felt REALLY tall (: had breakfast at macs.whn we reached thr got scolded cos we were late.after theory had uniform inspection.thn practised drills.it was like mega-tiring.breaks were frequent but only for 5 mins.
& thn it was time for commanding *hyperventilates
well,third time's a charm ain't it :D sir was shocked i was frm evg o.0
anw thn left ard 6 plus.th walk frm th campsite to bedok interchange was quite funny.cy ma'am and bp sir were running ard racing who cn go whr first and teased each other alot.hahahaha.they managed to tease me as well which was totally unnecessary.
anw moving on,faizah ma'am gave cy maa'm a joke.
faizah ma'am :which animal have no eyes?
cy ma'am :fish
faizah ma'am :no!!fish have eyes thn how they see?
cy ma'am : frog
faizah ma'am : no
me : snake
faizah ma'am : no!!thn how they see.
cy ma'am:ah!!!i know.earthworm!!
faizah ma'am: no,earthworm got eyes ok. (o.0 they do?) give up?
th answer is NO IDEA.get it? NO-EYE-DEER (no idea)
lol right :D anw thn found out some stuff frm bp sir which made me realise tht im just wasting my time.oh well whtever thn.bus-ed back to wdlands interchange and had dinner with sha and daniel at banquet ard 7 plus.thn went off first.reached home ard 8.15pm.bathed and slept.i know it was early but i was sooooo tired and my legs were aching everywhr.but at th very least i passed :D